Week Two - Christmas Week

I actually lost this week! I lost 300 grams this week and I think this is pretty good considering that it wasn't a great eating week - or so I thought.  But, as Mum keeps saying to me, my 'blow outs' aren't as big as they used to be - which is true, I just can't see it.  It's like when I was at my heaviest, I could not see how big I was getting or how the clothes I wore were getting too tight on me, I just could not see it.  I guess it's because it's literally happening right in front of my eyes - you really see change in things that are close to you.  This is where hinesight is great I guess.  You can compare what you are doing know with what you used to do.  The weird thing is though, it's like I've blocked out this time last year and the years before where I was shovelling the food into my mouth and not eating correctly.
I've lost a lot of motivation over the past couple of months as well.  I've lost 25 this year and I'm at a weight that I've never been at before.  I'm also continuing to loose weight and go into a new 'weight zone' which is scary.  I don't know what it's going to be like and it's weird, because it's almost like I don't want to know what it's going to be like. I really don't want to go back to where I was at the start of the year and this sunday will be a start of a new year.  I spoke to my leader at Weight Watchers this evening (thanks Rebekah!!!) and it was really good just to talk to someone who understood where I am.  So I'm going to try out some of the ideas that Rebekah gave me tonight and see how they go.
Anyway, hope this all made sense, I ended up ramballing a bit.  Just have to get through New Years now.
I'll see you in the new years!

Sophie

Week One

This week was an interesting week.  I started off really well, and then things went downhill with my eating.  BUT, I have been walking quite a bit this week, going on hour long walks with Mum throughout the week and today I walked from Porirua to Tawa (which is just under 5km!!!!) in just over an hour.  This is pretty darn good for me.  This time last year I wouldn't have even wanted to walk that just on pure laziness! But things have changed thank goodness.  So, all in all, I lost 900 grams this week and I am SUPER proud.  I honestly thought I wouldn't lose anything, but I did.  And it's a pretty good loss too.

So now it's Christmas, and my challenge this week is to either maintain or lose, I AM NOT PUTTING ON WEIGHT THIS WEEK!!!

Have a Merry Christmas everybody!!!

A Fresh Start

I have started again.  I am now into 'Phase 2' of my weight loss.  As of Wednesday the 14th I haven't lost any weight.  I have a new tracker and a new booklet and my lovely leader at Weight Watchers has ruled off on my card and I'm starting again.

Now you're probably wondering why I'm doing this.  It's simple.  I'm in a rut.  I'm in a routine that I can't be bothered doing anymore to be quite honest.  I've been on WW since February and I have lost all the weight that I put on over a couple of years so in my head, I'm back to the beginning.  The great thing is, that we have been introduced to a new program on WW where you can drop 3 points in your daily allowance and have 2 days a week where you only eat filling and healthy foods.

So with this new program in mind and a fresh start, I am embarking on a new weight loss journey where I am going to up my exercise and focus on listening to my hunger signals and watch what food my hand is grabbing and putting into my mouth whenever it likes. 

Oh and after reading a story in the WW mag, where someone lost 20kgs in 22 weeks, I have decided to lose the rest of my weight in 27 weeks.

Until next week!

Sophie

Not so Good...

So this week I put on 700grams... and it ain't a catch up from the week before... I went quite off track this past week but so far this week I'm back on :D

I'm finding it quite hard at the moment and I haven't really known why.  I've been wanting to eat everything and anything that is put in front of me even though I know that I don't actually want it or need it.  It's awful!  So I was thinking about it the other evening and suddenly thought, I've come to accept myself as the 'big girl' and this is who I see myself as.  With me loosing all this weight, I won't be the 'big girl' anymore.  Part of me is jumping up and down with joy but the other part is terrified.  I am actually scared of me becoming skinny!  Weird huh?  But with the Christmas season now upon us, I want to continue to loose weight or stay the same, so I'm just going to have to set my mind to tracking and eating correctly.  That's the only way I'm going to get through.

Enjoy your week!

Sophie